As the New Moon in Virgo appears on the horizon, the pull to stop and listen today was so strong that I awoke with no power in my flat, plus my phone, even though I charged it yesterday and had not used it, somehow completely ran out of battery (plus it only has about a 2 euro balance anyway – I need to get better about remembering to top up my phone). I had work to be done online, a french lesson via Skype scheduled for the afternoon and no way to reach anyone, even if there was an emergency. A small sense of panic started to stir.
Even though I spend much time alone, it is not the same as being unable to reach out and contact someone when you want to. The path before me looked lonely and daunting at first, but I took a deep breath and discovered that it was actually quite easy to navigate if I stayed calmed and read the signs:
Normally, I put my computer into sleep mode at night which drains my battery a little bit, but last night for some reason I hibernated it so I had a full battery in the morning. Using said battery, I was able to charge my phone enough to get a text message out to a friend and tell her that I may not be able to meet her in the afternoon because of what was going on. This is a friend that normally works all week and had coincidentally taken 2 days off work because she had a problem in her flat that only ended up taking one day to fix which left one day for us to get together before my upcoming teaching tour.
Luckily, in Europe, incoming calls and text messages are free, so she responded almost immediately and told me to come over now, that I could do all I needed to do at her place. Now you have to understand that since moving to Europe I have made friends, but not until recently did I have any in the city that I actually have a close enough relationship with that they would rush to my aid in my time of need. Actually, having friends like that in any city is a relatively new development for me. It is something I have actively been working on the last few years – creating healthy friendships. I ran out of my flat and jumped on the metro while my roommate stayed home and dealt with the whole power thing. Thanks to my friend, I didn’t miss a beat and was able to accomplish what I had planned, plus spend some quality time with her and her young son.
The whole experience brought to light some feelings about being completely out of touch that I know I have to work through – more cords to cut. At the same time showed me that I have finally created the network of friendships I’ve always wanted in life. The thing is, when you have that type of network, you are never really alone because someone will always come looking for you. And in a spiritual sense, I never feel alone anyway; I always know I am being well taken care of. It was that feeling of being protected that lead me to look around this morning and see the steps I needed to take. When I gave myself a chance to breath, I found that I was being guide right into the loving hug of someone genuinely wanting to help me.
Now instead of panic, my heart swells with gratitude. Thank you New Moon and the lovely Mountain Sprite Mara!