Inspirations from Binah

Last night, I asked the Universe for a sign.  I thought I was being very deliberate in my words, stating exactly what I need to see.  This morning an answer arrived, but it leaves me more perplexed.  The confusion does not arise from my mind, it comes from my heart.  My mind is set.  It sees the landscape and understands the road ahead, thought it is not attached to the destination, but the heart is not so easily swayed.  It holds tight to its desires.

So where is my faith?  Faith is a strong belief in a power beyond your own.  Faith says that no matter what happens, I believe it is what is best.  You see, I have faith, but the heart is trying to undermine my resolve.  Cords to expectations have been cut, the mind has released hope, but the heart still desires.  It desires something that cannot be right now.  I have faith that patiently continuing on this path will lead to happiness, though I do not know what that happiness looks like, but if faith tells me this is the right path, then why does desire create so much doubt?

And there lies my confusion.  Together, the mind and heart work to balance the emotions.  The thing is, which one is right?  Is my heart is telling me that what I desire is what I should go after, or should I trust my mind which says that right now what I desire is not for me?  Faith attempts to create a layer of peace, but the tug-o-war between the heart and mind has the emotions running overtime.  One minute, the mind’s logic calms the waters and continues forward movement, and the next the heart’s desires take over causing rough seas that suspend all travel.

The questions I ask myself are:

“How do you tell if the desire is a warning flag vs. a cord that must be cut?”

and

“If there is faith that the path is right, is there a way to expunge the desire?”

I gather up my tools, set my sacred space and call in my Higher Self:

• Gardenia incense burns, sending my questions to the Universe and asking for revelation of new knowledge.
• Snowflake Obsidian soothes so that I may clearly see cords to patterns of behavior that may need to be cut.
• Unikite provides balance between emotions and spirituality, gently releasing conditions that inhibit spiritual and psychological growth.
• Carnelian grounds me into the present reality and imparts an acceptance of the cycle of life.
• Lapis Lazuli releases stress, brings deep peace and harmonizes physical, emotional, mental and spiritual levels.
• Stone from Montserrat to ground and integrate all I receive.

Into meditation I go, open to all that will be revealed.  May the answers dispel the doubt and reinforce my faith…