From Paula:
I have had terrible memory issues. I think that I have a real problem. About 3 years ago I fell 10 feet onto my back in the middle of the night from a loft that was being renovated in a warehouse apartment that I was renting.
I laid there alone for several hours until the am. However I woke up in bed in the morning. I had a terrible concussion, and didn’t even realize what had happened to me until 5:30 pm that day. They did several tests, and nothing showed to have been a problem, however I suffered 3 seizures 2.5 months after my fall.
About a month ago I had another seizure out of the blue. I also have been having several memory issues. I cannot multi-task, and I used to be able to do this rather well. I have had many black outs of memory lately that are the same, as they were the first time that I hit my head. Pockets of time or episodes where I totally misplace something and have NO idea what happened.
I haven’t any medical insurance and I really need to understand what is happening to me. This is also affecting my business, however my psychic ability has increased, and I say things to people as if it were regular conversation and I have no idea that I am channeling. There have been several times where I have had people nearly fall off their chair by something that I have said, that I would have no idea of unless the spirit whispered it to me.
What do I do?
Inspirations from Binah:
There are several ways to look at your situation. You can go after the physical symptoms and consult once again with a doctor. Given your lack of medical insurance, there is probably a reluctance to take this approach until other avenues have been explored, but it is important not to remove it from the list of options until you feel well.
Your blackouts and memory issues may be strongly related to your increased psychic ability. When you go into a full body trance state, your consciousness takes a back seat as the entity you are channeling comes in. When you are done, your consciousness steps back into her rightful place and you have no memory of what happened.
The important thing to remember is that you have control over whether or not you allow an entity to use you as a channel. Right now, you are not exercising that right and the entity has free reign to come and go as it pleases. You have to take back control and decide if you want this entity to channel through you at all. If you decide to create a contract with it, then you must set strong boundaries around the use of your body.
Go into your meditative sanctuary and ask your Higher Self to bring in the entity you are channeling. Ask the entity any questions you feel are important in determining whether you want to continue working with it. Be clear in stating that it can not enter unless you give explicit permission. Even if you choose to continue working with it, you want to come up with a system where it either asks before entering, relays information for you to consciously pass on, or you call it when you are ready. If you choose not to continue channeling this entity, tell it your decision and that it can no longer enter you at all. Your boundary will be honored.
This process is the same regardless of the entity channeled. Given your abilities, expect other entities to also want to work with you. Just as in the physical world, you want to associate only with those you feel comfortable with. Each time, you must consciously choose to accept or deny the contract, or you can decide to shut down your channeling abilities until you are ready. Once you are fully in control, you may find the physical symptoms dissipate, for the body’s actions are manifestations of your energy field. Be strong and know that you have the power to heal your body, now is the time to exercise it!
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