Inspirations from Binah

I have often found that when I first enter a new phase of success, I feel the most amount of sorrow and loneliness. It is hard to explain why this happens without sounding like an ego-maniac, but I truly think that it is hard for people to see others around them attain success. We are conditioned to find the faults in their behavior or wonder how they cheated to get there. Even our closest friends can give in to jealousy and envy.

In the last few months, my life has reached new levels of happiness and success. Yes, there are rough spots, but the amount of growth on a personal, emotional, spiritual and financial level has been extremely rewarding. My greatest nemesis and triumph is over acceptance. I am working hard to find acceptance of all that is around me, though sometimes things accidentally slip out of my mouth before I can stop them, and then I find myself apologizing profusely.

And yet, in that same time, I have lost the friendship of some that I thought were good friends, had organizations get upset that I am not following their exact rules and been pushed back without reason. I look at these at tests and work with my Higher Self to ensure that these are unavoidable casualties, but putting all that energy into trying to make others find acceptance over my choices can be exhausting. I’m not perfect; I make my share of mistakes, but I try hard to apologize and make amends.

So… if I feel like I am heading in the right direction, fulfilling my life purpose, being the best me I can be, why do the people around me find the need to pull me down or just walk away? And more importantly, why do I let their denial of acceptance over my actions affect me so much. I recognize that it is coming from their own fear, ignorance and/or jealousy, but it is still hard to accept.

All I can do is keep moving forward and be confident in that I will attract a new set of people that are strong and happy in their own choices and can therefore accept mine.

I encourage your thoughts and feelings. Let us learn from each others experiences…